Dim Vavi's Daily Journal

Yesterday I didn't do much - and it was very useful.  I got to see a lot of fears, share in the group and see where I could improve - that is the power of coaching.  In normal peer groups I would be intimidated to post it - because I kinda have to prove myself there. But in coaching - I paid for it - and I believe I can (and deserve) to receive help. I trust the process - and it helps.  I also noticed how me finally getting laid can push back my progress in other areas, specifically in business. Or maybe it shines light on my mental stuff and ego I better deal with?  Either way, I now see the value in both sides - I thought not having sex is what gave me frustration and distracted from putting in effort. But at the same time it was giving me good focus, more time and energy. I can clearly see now how it may have been beneficial. On the other hand, getting my dating life handled gave me more peace. I feel happier and less pressure -but got to deal with complacency, le...

Just write something.  It's hilarious how when you have no thoughts, and too many - it is the same result - I stop and not write anything.   Like with my yesterday's upload, I need to break that barrier. No matter how inappropriate it would be - it's all a comparison to someone greater.  "They wouldn't upload that shitty" - but what exactly is "shitty" for them, you, me, and everyone who'll read or listen to it?  Is there a 0,1% possibility that it would be helpful to anyone - YES!  Even if it is just to relate and not worry about quality - or be better.  It WILL always serve its purpose. And if not - it served its purpose to me.  I am enough. My thoughts are valuable to me. I am not forcing anyone to listen or read what I say But it is out there now... I allowed myself to be seen. Cuddles are another small cheatcode to life.  I cannot describe what happens, but the intimacy of them recharges my energy - my feminine energy. That thing I need to h...

It's not the right time. I made this excuse before enrolling in coaching.  I thought everything needs to be perfect, for stars to align before I will be able to do that.  All the times in my life when I thought like that, I've been proven wrong. I would say that ever the best time can turn into mediocre, or may never come, more likely. And the worst usually becomes best just from having really low expectations and showing up.  I had so much success with this coaching in just 3 weeks.  I had epiphanies in the first week. And that is what happens if we just allow it.   I believe I am very lucky. Always has been. It makes it hard to see all I do as personal actionment. Ego...  But do I need to see it like that, or do I want results?  If I found people that gave me success, that still means I made effort to connect with them.  I facilitated the opportunity It is my doing. Everything that happens is my choice - I didn't run away. I stayed and allo...