Dim Vavi's Daily Journal

I am ok. My life is ok.  It is actually awesome. But it is ok.  I am so grateful to have all I have in life.  I am so grateful I get to be in this world and experience it all: both happy and hard moments.  I am glad for all of it. I am happy to be alive.  Yesterday date was amazing. I didn't feel like I deserved that kind of connection and intimacy.  It is still hard for me to believe I can be that valuable for someone. For them to enjoy being around and with me, as I am right now. But I guess I do deserve it. Maybe I am valuable.  I know I will always be valuable to the most important person in my life - me.  But I guess I can also add to someone's life by just being myself.  It feels good to know that.  Surreal. Unbelievable. Strange.  But Good

I am in relaxation and low effort period. I have some worries that this period is gonna last more than I want it to.  But it іs gonna last as much as it needs.  I am making progress - every day, just a little bit better. If I would not do much this week - it is OK. I know that it will be for a reason then. What I can do is to do a bare minimum.  Then stop and ask myself if I can continue, and if it will make my life better.  That's all it takes to have that small step made.  I made a huge progress yesterday on a date.  I was able to be really honest and straightforward. And nothing bad happened - even more, it was awesome, fun and felt good. I was able to hold her hand. To talk openly about what I want, including boundaries and kissing.  We shared a lot of our experiences with dating. I was really assertive

  Why I started to do meditation breakfasts?  My meditation breakfasts look like that Mornings in combination with food and quiet background is.... meditative. For me it opens a path somewhere inside of me. Somewhere deep in my memories and... emotions. Most of the times it is just a relaxing experience which helps with reflections. But from time to time I stumble upon huge epiphanies here. It is surely will be one of the main important tools for my progression with Mindset stuff. Yesterday I was on an amazing date.  I like that I can finally push myself to go for the things I want - touch, kisses and being vulnerable.  Even if I fuck up spectacularly, it is an experience. 1% better every time.  I will be at the point where I would totally know what I'm doing.  And for now... I believe it is possible that there are girls in Belgrade who will like even a current version of me.  I do controversial things, yes. But people are different - and w...