Dim Vavi's Daily Journal

Last workday of the year. Last bit of effort. Last coaching of that year too. It all seemed so distant, and now its tomorrow and I broke my heights. I keep switching between being at peace and relaxed, and being pushy to me and strict. It is hand to find a balance, but, guess what - my life will be ok in any way.  Read books, write my philosophies, share experiences.  I have a lot of people to share it with now.  I may certainly fall back to just enjoying what I have for some time.  Will it make me push better after a while?  Probably yeah, it just may take a couple of years.  Which is not bad by itself, I just want it faster.  Would I be willing to put in immense effort? For now I'm not sure. But in some weeks, months - definitely.  I would want to reach others' level.  I get to be among winners all my life from now on

I don't remember how it was last time, but I enjoy taking this break.  I deserved it. I needed it.  There may be people who are in worse state than me - there always are. But that doesn't diminish what I feel. And anyone who says otherwise is not in contact with inner self. I am almost back in the feeling that it all gonna be ok. It is inevitable. There's just too much time for my memory to focus on.  I am gonna be ok. It is the truth. I am also allowed to share that truth with others. Give value.  I like doing that.