Approaches. Self-respect. FUCK YES or no. Friends. Perseverance. 2022-12-05
Yesterday was packed to the T. I had 9 hours of different human contact... FFS. I was fucking exhausted at the end. But I saw great progress there. In approaches I stopped chasing after girls - the thing that always gave me frustration. I am ok with starting convo, it takes little energy now, even while I am anxious all the time. But them not wanting to talk and me thinking that I at least should make it less awkward - it is not for me. It drains my self-respect. I say after them - "have a nice day", but do I really want to make that effort to someone who don't want to consider me? FUCK YES or no… I want to internalize it. It is no fun for me otherwise. Trying to convince them to talk to me - why? I am enough by myself, I don't need to convince her of that. It feels counterproductive to what I'm trying to believe about myself. And, fuck.. I have 4 friends now. One from before, and 3 here now, with different areas o...